One journey comes to an end - another begins

Well, I am saddened to say that Sean and I have decided to go our separate ways. While we will continue to live together, romantically and in all other ways we will now travel our own roads.

While I am sad that we have lost what Sean and I had, I also have a great sense of excitement with the possibilities that lay ahead. I know it will not be easy, but I think in the end both of us may benefit from calling it quit's now.

My biggest challenge will be re-creating a social life for myself, which I am slowly trying to do. I am trying to give Sean his space so he has the best chance possible to build a solid foundation with his new boyfriend, but we will continue to remain close friends.

A Rollercoaster of a week

Well the past week has been a real emotional rollercoaster... not something I am really used to. For those who didn't hear on the grapevine, Sean and I are having some problems and last weekend a number of issues came to head... which ended in a lot of upset and confussion. It also ended in Sean moving out for a couple of days... and in another world first... me actually going and seeing a psychologist (though I will still not confirm any rumours that I am psycho).

I will not go into details on the specifics of the rift between Sean and I, but will say that during the whole time we were never angry or nasty to each other, and never raised our voices.

Well, Sean is home again, and we have decided to work on what we have. Things have stabalised again, though things are shakey behind the scenes.

I really learn't this week what things mean to me. How much I love and appreciate the people I sorround myself with. I never truley appreciated how good my friends are. That they can put up with me sending them and SMS and turining up 5 minutes later and busrting into a babbling mess on them, or my friends who call me in the evening when they know I would be feeling alone, just to talk and listen, or even the friends who offer to come over with a bottle of wine and get blottoed with me!

The week started lousy, with a lot of upset, tears and emotional rollercoaster, but the good news is things improved. On Thursday I went to the VALA conference, and won an iPod! I never win anything good! A few oppertunities also presented themselves that I need to think about and confisider for my future... but more on them when my head clears a bit.

Tomorrow Sean and I are going on a 'date', we are going out for lunch then to the movies to see Sweeny Tod. Tomorrow night we are having a few guests over for dinner, so Sean is currently preparing it, and desert (chocolate moose cheese cake!) as I type this.

On my final night - life gets really good next week... Normal TV is back!!!! God bless Desperate Housewives, Lost, Dirty Sexy Money (I hope), and one of my old favourites returning, Good News Week!